Emptiness (Blankness) - Emal

Posting on behalf of Emal:

Emptiness (Blankness)


In life’s journey as I was growing up had this feeling of loneliness & left out all most every day. Now since have got a very loving and caring life partner its been quite a few months this feeling of loneliness is not wondering around me. But after marriage or in my life 1st time I experienced emptiness when my husband travelled 3 days on official visit last weekend. Am generally very bold person I did not fear that I have to stay all alone for 3 full night @ home. Weekends in the day I was completely busy with class and institutional visits, so that was ok. I step in to home to see I was not welcomed with a smile or hug, No arms where I can rest in peace. No eager ears waiting to listen my DCS class stories, I thought for myself “Except the reality” that some one is not there today. All was fine went back to sleep cause I was very tired, read book for some time than i was fast asleep. It continued the other day whole day I was busy the next day I woke up got ready left home. I boarded a bus and was thinking. From yesterday there has been no action / reaction in me. No smile no enthu I was just like a robot where, I woke up, got freshened, get ready, had my coffee, lock the door, run for my destiny. Life was so empty for complete 3 days. Surprising!! Discovered something new J

Note: Thought Of Emptiness (What I Discovered)

Peace
Emal

A thought by Emal

"Was sitting in the corner bench of the park
looking at huge grown trees, different types of trees
Was feeling as tho am in some hill station
was feeling world (Bangalore) is so calm, peaceful and adorable
when i looked up it was like all branches / leaves of trees were like shamiana
there we birds chirping, flying high with out barrier (cage)
some dogs were sleepy and yawning, some were active
some were playing and some were have a nice evening walk
without belt around its neck
There were lot of people walking around, Some very serious
Some on phone, some were pushing themselves to jog
Few couples who were completely dwell in there own world
Sat there for an hours time and just experienced the silence
Finally i felt "Life is so beautiful, Calm and Peaceful"

Note: We have negative and positive around us choice ours what we choose to communicate or experience. I choose / experienced calm sweet misty breeze and peacefulness.

Peace
Emal.