Posting on behalf of Emal:
Emptiness (Blankness)
In life’s journey as I was growing up had this feeling of loneliness & left out all most every day. Now since have got a very loving and caring life partner its been quite a few months this feeling of loneliness is not wondering around me. But after marriage or in my life 1st time I experienced emptiness when my husband travelled 3 days on official visit last weekend. Am generally very bold person I did not fear that I have to stay all alone for 3 full night @ home. Weekends in the day I was completely busy with class and institutional visits, so that was ok. I step in to home to see I was not welcomed with a smile or hug, No arms where I can rest in peace. No eager ears waiting to listen my DCS class stories, I thought for myself “Except the reality” that some one is not there today. All was fine went back to sleep cause I was very tired, read book for some time than i was fast asleep. It continued the other day whole day I was busy the next day I woke up got ready left home. I boarded a bus and was thinking. From yesterday there has been no action / reaction in me. No smile no enthu I was just like a robot where, I woke up, got freshened, get ready, had my coffee, lock the door, run for my destiny. Life was so empty for complete 3 days. Surprising!! Discovered something new J
Note: Thought Of Emptiness (What I Discovered)
Peace
Emal
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A touching thought and feeling...
ReplyDeleteI am aware of this feeling as I have been living alone during since I was young. Maybe, after some time, you get used to it. I feel the same when I travel, where I feel blank, void of most of my expressions - but for serious work.
But, after being married for a long time, trust me Emal, you will want to get some timeout just for yourself. Maybe you can regroup your thoughts and await your loved ones eagerly. A lull (distance) in the relationship enhances the love once you regroup :D
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Ask me what emptiness is I can tell you, losing the man whom I had loved so dearly.I feel a big vacuum all around me and a feeling of drawn into bottomless pit many a times!Feel lonely and empty even in the midst of a huge crowd.Most of the people can look forward for their loved ones to come back may be after absence of few days but my dear one has gone to a place of no return! But I know for sure, I fight out this sense of emptiness and loneliness in me with the help of you,my loved near and dear ones.In the heart of hearts I know that is what is wanted by my beloved too!!
ReplyDeleteI agree with u Suneetha.
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